Stress,stress, stress

So it's decided, if I get one more piece of bad news or disappointing news I just might have a melt down. I'm pretty sure I'm on my breaking point. Every time we get some kind of good news we get twice as many pieces of bad. It's a never ending battle that I can't seem to shake off. Thus the never ending reference. So here's whats going on, The weather changed back into being just overcast with no rain which apparently is the best lighting you can have when getting photographed outside so we decided to keep the bridal date for Friday June 5th. But then this morning it went back to being rainy tomorrow so we had to move it AGAIN to the 20th. Which I guess is fine. I was really excited I went and had my dress pressed so it would look great for the pictures and it wasn't exactly cheap and now we did it for nothing. So now that it's moved to the 20th my hair person can no longer do it cause she will be out of town. And everyone I call is either too expensive or doesn't work on Saturdays. (Really though? Why wouldn't you work on a sat?) Now all this may sound silly but with everything else that John and I have had to endure this just added to the frustration. There are people in my family that have been great through most of the planning process and then today I got news that I really wasn't okay with but really I can't do anything about it which again is frustrating cause what happened or what is going to happen isn't really fair to me and John on that day, so I said nothing in our defense. I really thought that for that one day people would just deal with whatever their problem was or upset about for us, so they could be there for us but I'm starting to see that, that is just not a realistic notion. And that really saddens me cause I thought my family do more for than that. I'm just ready to lock myself in a room where no one can call and gripe about anything else and if they had something to say then they just couldn't find me to do so. Everyone knows who they are that are being pretty horrible so no names are necessary. So I really hope things start to lighten up and start to be happy again cause this really isn't how it should be while planning such a celebration. People are losing focus of why they are there in the first place.